And I Ache all over
NATIONAL JOURNAL OF HOMOEOPATHY 1997 Mar / Apr VOL VI NO 2.
Dr Kershasp N Kasad
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In Sept 1994, MC delayed for 15 days. Once started, it did not stop till Nov 1994, when once again she started LH/RH spray and Progesterone under Dr Hinduja's advice. In Jan '95, LH/RH+ Oestrogen+ Progesterone given and normal withdrawal bleeding took place on 28-1-95. Once again bleeding persisted for 6 days without any sign of stoppage, amel. Only with Hamamelis and Bursa- pastoris, in 2 days. Since then all hormonal therapy stopped. Now she was awaiting her next period on 25-2-95. Menses are profuse, odourless, bright red or maroon, no clots, at times stains delible. Menses before aggr = generalized water retention, backache and abdominal pain radiating to thighs, Ecchymoses, chilliness and coldness; pains spasmodic, crampy -amel with flow in 24 hours. LMP 28-1-95
Low grade fever on and off treated with mycins. Her quality of life has gone very low and she appealed to me to help her.
After hearing her, the remedy loomed clearly on my mind's horizon, but abstained from administering it, for the interpersonal relationships were lacking and I wanted to probe further.
On 21-2-95, I conducted The Second Interview
Father : Lawyer, hot tempered, sarcastic, not conventional. His thinking is different.
Mother : Conventional, religious, dictatorial, did not allow her o go with friends, very possessive. Wanted her to be best in everything, even piano. She was scared of her mother, even now is. Mother is sweet, but yet feels resentment, inward agitation, feeling none in the world to look after her. Often the impulse to run away, especially in the last 2 yrs, because of ill-health. Mother would bang her head against the wall, before marriage. Father too used to beat her till 13-14 years of age. The patient felt bitter, angry and frustrated. Her marriage was arranged (2) through mutual friends with parental approval; their ideas matches, very happy relation. Sex no problem, husband - a friend. Mother feared: "my daughter is not with me" and behaved very badly. On the wedding day she refused her embrace. And patient felt bitter, bad, hurt and frustrated. She made up after sometime - Feb 1992.
She was shy in her childhood, and mother never allowed her to mix freely with friends. Basically friendly, now she can mix up well, meet people freely, yet she likes to be alone. No specific tears. Loves animals- more faithful than humans. Parental disharmony and quarrels constant to which she was a witness. She was a buffer between her parents. Mother was scared of her husband, but she still fires and beats her. Her maternal grandma was a first class MA in Economics, a gold medalist and a Prof, she was harsh and would beat her mother, and had an unhappy childhood. She died of paralysis when her mother was 12 yrs old. Father was fairly stable, since childhood. (3) Maternal uncle- also a lawyer, gold medalist, with unfulfilled desire and frustrated, he too expired. Father not expressive of love. Mother - wants love, appreciation, has not received it, hence frustrated. The patient is averse to fights, she gets upset. Depressed, brooding, feels low, have palpitations, gnawing heavy feeling in the heart, unhappy, bogged down.
Fear of Ghosts, mother and husband. Frightened from sudden noises.
Examination funk always, yet always first. Anticipation anxiety - before reading a paper at Medical conferences, catching a train etc = hands tremble, nausea, cold hands and feet, sweating, urge to stool, poor appetite and a butterfly sensation in the epigastrium.
Apprehensive, subdued by the mothers behaviour and easily tearful. Feels better when alone. Fearful, anxious since childhood: scared of violent movies, blood, anybody being beaten, something will happen to parents3 - are they breathing? When they go out, that they will die3 eg mother fell down and sustained a Colle's fracture, and when her husband comes home late when usually he is punctual, she worries I hope he is ok. Thousand thoughts assail my mind. But, all this - not for myself."
Recurrent headaches - Migraine, aggr sun, fasting, indigestion and Fan = also blocked nose.
After this interview was over, whilst leaving the residence, she disclosed to me quietly in a hushed whisper "Dr, these are not my true parents, I am a adopted child, right from birth. This was disclosed by my mother just before marriage at 28 - first to my husband and later to me. The news rattled both of us, but we accepted the situation, and the marriage went through without any mishap. "The physician too was stunned, kept his cool, did not react and quietly asked the patient how she felt about this sudden disclosure. She too was stunned and flabbergasted; the true parents are still alive somewhere in the city. When asked if she would like to make enquiries about the same and find them out, she categorically declined lest it produce an intense psychological trauma which she would not be able to digest, especially in her present incapacitating condition. The husband and his parents accepted the situation, and held a similar opinion. The husband was on board Merchant Navy and was not available during the interviews.
After this, I quietly left her residence. The drug was released on 23-2-95.
The Third Interview at the Clinic on 3-3-95
Pains amel 50% - Lt neck, nape, sternomastoid, shoulders, legs - including cramps, knotted muscles, and generalized bodyache. Muscle fatigue less. Weakness less. Quivering muscles. Sleep better, on the whole better. "I am not happy her at all. Mother is RUDE to me, as I lie down the whole day due to pains. This HURTS me. I want to join my husband in the Merchant Navy," and she broke into tears. I never had a heart to heart talk with them at all. I am rebuked, and so I cannot stay with them. I feel GUILTY, therefore, I stay with them; they have none others to help them. My husband agrees with this. But, I have no rest here. He too feels guilty. No pains hands, joints. Mother tells me that I am rude."
